In the first blog post about singleness and sexuality, I wrote about the grand Story of the King and the Bride. The Story that you and I are invited to partake in, the Grand Epic that sweeps time and eternity.
In this post, I tackle some of the nitty-gritty questions and challenges around singleness and sexuality. Many of the principles are the same as for marrieds, of course, but because I am single I’m writing from that perspective. Many of these questions are those submitted by readers on my Instagram page @gesundheit.nurse
“Marriage is our design, but that does not mean it is our purpose.” (Anita Yoder, Life is for Living (Not for Waiting Around) )
Why, just why, did God make us sexual beings if He knew that so many of us would never get to be married and experience marital intimacy? That’s a burning, sometimes bitter, question for many of us, especially women.
And quite frankly, there are times when I’ve asked God if He couldn’t just take these desire away since there isn’t any purpose for them anyway, as far as I can see.
But as I’ve wrestled with these questions, I’ve been reminded again and again that there is a bigger picture, and our sexuality is a glorious part of the Grand Story.
I know that God is able and wants to meet every longing and desire that we have and wants to be like a husband to us. But I often wonder how he's able to meet the longing for physical intimacy that we have. Is that something that we'll never get to enjoy if we never get married?
The simple, blunt answer is No.
And that comes with very deep, real pain. Dwelling on it can be overwhelming. Ignoring it is usually unhealthy.
Take it to God. Tell Him how much it hurts. Be vulnerable with God. Allow yourself to weep as long and hard as you need to.
And then get up, wash your face, and go live a rich and full life. Kick out any lies that say you are somehow less than. Gratitude is powerful; practice it regularly.
It seems like everything is now blamed on our past and childhood trauma. Why do I need to dig up the past? Aren’t we covered by the blood of the Lamb? I would rather live in the present than in the past, because God doesn’t remember.
This objection against digging into the past is very common. We'd like to think that everything BC (before Christ) is sealed into a black box and cannot affect the present.
The reality is, if your past (trauma, experiences, beliefs you picked up as a child) is affecting your present sexuality (or any other area of life), then it IS IN THE PRESENT and we have the right and the privilege of dealing with it now.
It seems to me that this refusal to look at the past is actually a form of unbelief. Faith says that Jesus broke the power of sin, and if I'm not living in that reality then everything that affects this must be brought to Him.
And as we do that, He is faithful to heal the present pain and remove the ties to past trauma.
I'll link a podcast episode that was quite the interesting on this topic of past trauma affecting current sexual brokenness. Although that's not the subject they're tackling directly, the guests (who have spent years coaching men and women through the process of finding freedom from porn and other sexual addictions) share their collective experiences about how the past affects the present, and how acknowledging this is key to healing.
Unhelpful to hear the traditional church views of don't awaken love before it's time. We're already long past that.... Now what.
Immerse yourself deeply into the truth of what God intended our sexuality to be. And as you discover what God intended, grieve deeply what was not, and persist in asking for restoration. God desires your restoration even more than you do, and He delights in your asking.
How to deal with sexual desires in a God honoring way. Yes, ladies experience this to.
When God made you a woman, He made you to be sexual. He designed you this way, and He calls it good. Your sexuality is to be embraced and delighted in, to the honor of your Creator, who thought it up in the first place. Recognizing this is perhaps the first step in stewarding your sexual desires well.
Ask God to give you a deep reverence for the holiness and glory of sexual intercourse within marriage. As you begin to see this reality, your desires themselves will begin to change, and to align with the original design.
PS. A desire for sexual intimacy is not itself wrong. It is good and holy and to be held carefully and reverently.
At what point can you call something sexual abuse, what if it isn't the action itself, but rather other things that cause you to question?
I find it helpful to think in terms of violation. Violation occurs when God's boundaries are overrun. If you feel violated, find someone safe and mature and talk to them about what you experienced.
I got several questions on masturbation. (By definition, masturbation is the manipulation of one's own genitals for sexual pleasure. Just so we know what we're talking about.)
I am not convinced that the act of masturbation, all by itself, is always sin.
However, I am convinced that compulsive or excessive masturbation isn't healthy. And even secular researchers acknowledge that masturbation often leads to sexual dysfunction and an inability to enjoy intimacy with one's (future) spouse. That seems like a good reason to abstain. (Link to study)
Also. Pornography and masturbation and lust often go together. Lust is sin. Pornography is sin. Abstinence from those will most likely require abstinence from masturbation too.
Finally. Secular sources are pretty open about masturbation being "self sex" or "solo sex". Which means that it's still sex outside marriage, and therefore outside the bounds of what God calls good.
Don't take my word for this. Ask God to show you how He sees this. He will. And He'll also change your beliefs and desires if needed.
Is it true that because of sexual abuse your sex drive will be more intense? Claiming that you don't desire anything you know nothing of.
I have seen it work like this, where sexual desires are woken up much too early.
It can also work the other way, where someone is shut down sexually, and wants nothing to do with anything sexual.
Both of these are normal responses to an abnormal experience. Both need healing and restoration. Both are not to be ashamed of, but to be acknowledged as brokenness.
*acting on those too early sexual desires is often sin, and this of course must be addressed as such. But recognize the brokenness behind it, too.
How can a sexually abused. person have an intense sex drive? Considering that their only sexual interaction was horrible.
Our brains and bodies work in some pretty incredible and complex ways.
Sexual abuse overloads and overwhelms the brain circuits. Especially for children, who are not ready for sex, much less sexual abuse. Connections get scrambled, and things get linked that aren't meant to be. Desires can be woken up that ought to have stayed asleep for many years yet. For some, that leads to intense sexual desires into adulthood. Those desires are often connected to intense shame because of the abuse. Recognizing how it works is often a step toward healing.
God can and does rewire those broken circuits, to healthy, normal desires. Cry out to Him for this. He delights to hear your cries and begin the rewiring process.
What would you tell someone who is struggling with impure thoughts and pictures coming to mind and desperately wants to be free of them but feels like they are out of her control?
First of all, I'm cheering you on. This is a holy battle, and very much worth all the effort and tears and vulnerability.
If possible, find a safe, mature woman to confide in face to face. Ask her if she would be willing to walk with you through this. You are not meant to walk this alone.
Remember: I cannot. He can. (This is absolutely impossible in our own strength. It is absolutely possible with God.)
I don't know exactly why some people seem to find almost instant freedom and others have a long fight. Walk YOUR journey and don't worry that it's different from others. God will honor your persistence and your desire to honor Him in your sexuality.
I'm so proud of you.
Also check out Pure Desire podcast. They have a lot of good resources for both men and women.
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